To be sure, my motives for writing have changed.
Yeah, I went through that phase where I was obsessed with being published and wanted to get famous, but that was and is bullshit. Here is what I told her below.
She asked, "Why do you write? Why do you write? What do you hope to get out of it?"
Short Answer: Pure Love. (That was the answer I gave at the end.)
Long Answer: I love to write. This is not how I make my bread. I am not going to have to peddle books to make a living or pay rent. (Though, I will for the sheer pleasure of meeting people.)
Besides, I teach creative writing, and I can teach better if I write. For students who are writing a novel, I have a basis of explanation for them. Something based in real life.
And, I hit it hard every day. That has not been easy for me with my small kids and busy schedule, but I get up early to do it every day. I get up at 1a.m., 2a.m., 3a.m. and just write.
I want my work to go out there. (I point to the world.)
This is not a career move for me. I love where I work and am already tenured.
It’s Pure Love for me.
She also asked if it was a career move or a venue to teach other classes, and it's not, because I am vetted to teach all the composition courses at my college.
We don't have that departmental competition, some higher-ed institutions do where there are hoarders of courses, usually men or senior faculty. In fact, I am really looking forward to teaching Creative Writing this summer. I didn't have to fight anybody for that choice.
So, that's me. Why do you write?
Keep writing, regardless of your motives. #Resist